The feeling I’ve fallen and can’t find a way up has hit me in the last day or so. How does three conversations turn into maybe needing an alternative home or job or friends show up once again when everything seemed like it was going well enough?

Life challenges us to rise up out of failures and to try again but sometimes it just feels like too much. No the end for me isn’t coming just yet but some things have come up recently that are contributing to my anxiety and feeling like I need to escape from the trap I triggered and find a different way to live, place to live and friends willing to share it with me.

Jobs come and go and if I continue in my role at this job I may find it was just stupid stress that was unnecessary. I’m strong enough to suppress my desires, wants and needs but there’s got to be a release valve somewhere that I can use.