Good morning friends.

This morning I have hit sub drop hard, after a play party last night and a different after party I am left with this feeling of loneliness, sadness and heartbreak.

As the weeks since coming to the island to live with M’lady have passed our bonding time has reduced and with more Magic and less relationship development time, the talking and listening to answers, and the physical exploration of each other’s bodies.

I want to be wanted. To be touched and to be loved. Why does is hurt so much to ask for it?

What is an appropriate level of wanting should I display or disclose? I don’t want to tail spin a relationship that I thought was solid.

Maybe that’s not the issue and I just need to accept an automatic no to any suggestions of sex in my current mood, is it strange that I find that I have too many negative thoughts about everything that has happened for the past month and that one would think a rekindling of our bond would have happened sooner than what appears forecast.

It’s especially difficult when I’m not the only guy in the house. I want to feel like I’m home but why does it hurt? Oh yeah that’s why.

Keep it kinky 😈